If there’s one aspect of Caitlyn Jenner’s life that has been weighing on her conscience, it’s the dating world. In the latest episode of I Am Cait, love and romance are the main focus. Cait likens dating to “being fed to the wolves” and it’s clear she’s way out of her comfort zone.
We see a lot more of Cait’s best friend and biggest supporter, Candis Cayne, in this episode. The two have a genuine friendship that translates so well on screen. There’s a healthy balance of support as we see both Cait and Candis defend the other this week. And while E! may be pulling the “will they-won’t they” angle, it’s just heartwarming to see these two women care and uplift one another.
The strength of their relationship is shown when Caitlyn agrees to be one of Candis’ emergency contacts during a visit to the doctor. They jokingly refer to the other as “lovers” which can be seen as friendly rapport or a hint at something more. Candis also opens up about her past struggles of finding proper healthcare, which is an issue Caitlyn Jenner hasn’t had to face. It’s been essential for Cait to be surrounded by those less fortunate than her as it’s been key to her learning experience, and ours as viewers.
After revealing to Cait that she’s had a past filled with failed romances and a domestically abusive relationship, Candis can’t see a romantic future for herself. “I don’t think it’s ever going to happen in the love department,” she says defeated. Cait’s outlook is fresh and positive and wants to help Candis feel hope and opportunity again. The two visit a camp designed for transgender youth, where they meet young people who emit such positivity and life. Camp Aranu’tiq counsels trans youth and help them come to terms with their identities. These kids get the chance to connect with other young people that they relate to, which is not always an option back home.
Aforementioned, the episode’s biggest theme was deciphering Cait’s love life. She still believes in love, even after 3 marriages that didn’t work out. “I never want to give up on love and partnership. That would be sad,” Cait remains positive. She is admittedly terrified of dating now that she’s out, especially as the conversation turns to the dangers and disappointments of dating in the trans world.
Trans advocate Zachary Drucker expresses that “basically we’re living in a world that has no place for us.” To being stood up on dates or just being flat out denied, trans women and men face a lot of struggle when it comes to dating. For Cait, she isn’t too expressive about whether she is attractive to women or men, however, ponders on the possibility of being courted by a man.
Jenny Boylan, a recurring member of the cast and friend of Caitlyn’s, worries Cait might be looking at this the wrong way. “It's a thing that women do. We look to men to give us self-worth...we all deserve love. And I worry for you, Caitlyn, that you’re not letting yourself be loved.” Boylan, who stayed in the marriage to her wife after transitioning, just wants Cait to see that it’s possible to find happiness.
While we still don’t know where Cait’s head is at in terms of dating, it’s probably best she tackles that journey privately. With so much of her life in the public eye, there are just some things she should allow for herself.
There are only two episodes left of I Am Cait and while we’re dreading the day of the docu-series’ concludes, we’ve had fun and have learned a great deal. What do you hope to see for the remaining episodes? Catch us next week as we recap the final episodes of I Am Cait!